***The following post is about my personal experiences meditating after a back injury. I am not a meditation teacher, but if something I write within this post helps you, then wonderful. I realize that the meditation described below isn't "approved" by all Buddhists. However, if you are here to lecture everyone that this technique isn't accepted by your tradition, or to criticize those who use it as misguided, then I merely ask that you refrain from commenting. This isn't a post suggesting that everyone should follow this meditation technique. Nor, is it a post meant for the average practitioner. This is a post about how to maintain a meditation practice after a severe back injury. I thought it might interest fellow meditation practitioners who suffer from chronic, back pain.*** -James
A year ago, I tore a spinal disc while changing a flat-tire. Ever since then I have endured chronic back pain, which has hindered my mediation sessions. In my personal experience, sitting in meditation has never been free of some physical discomfort, and such sensations are to be expected. In the past, I've been able to mindfully view the aches as normal reactions from a frail body, and usually, the intensity and level of distraction of the pain diminished with a return to deep breathing. I was usually able to view it as simply another sensation that came and went throughout meditation.
It's a different story now. Today, if I attempt meditation on the cushion my back screams with extreme pain. At the same time, folding my legs triggers severe, sciatic nerve pain down my right leg. Obviously, this isn't an average ache that can be dealt with by deep breathing alone to relax the muscles of the body. Thus, I had to stop meditating for awhile, which was discouraging, until I read something from my teacher, Zen master Thich Nhat Hanh in his book
Peace is Every Step about aches, pains and meditation. "If you prefer, you can sit in a chair with your feet flat on the floor and your hands resting in your lap."
So, today, I tried sitting in a straight-back chair on a memory foam cushion (
link). In addition, I added a contoured, lumbar support pad for my back that people often using driving (similar to the red one in the image below):
It was a break-through!! It enabled me to maintain a straight, stable and balanced bodily position without the excruciating pain. I kept my legs firmly planted on the floor with my hands folded in my lap, positioned in the classic, meditation mudra position, which helps engender balance and a feeling of oneness.
I didn't have to cut the session short either. I was able to roughly sit for 20 minutes without experiencing the excruciating pain that has recently been hindering my practice. I am just so thrilled to be able to meditate again!! Otherwise, I wouldn't be able to continue my practice.
I think the most important part is keeping a straight back. To quote Suzuki Roshi from Zen Mind, Beginners Mind, "the most important thing in taking the zazen posture is to keep your spine straight." Otherwise, slumping or hunching over seems to constrict a free-flow of breath, and for me, meditation just isn't as beneficial if I can not breath freely and normally. In my experience, it is the breath that melts away the obstacles to mindfulness that my mind and body often impose. If I need to sit in a straight-back chair to achieve this aim, then so be it. It has the blessing of my teacher, Thich Nhat Hanh, whose expertise and wisdom is unquestionable.
It's not for everyone, but chair meditation has been a lifesaver, and I didn't feel it was any less helpful. If fact, I felt a greater sense of connection to my body than I have felt in awhile. Usually the only feeling I felt when meditating recently was breath-taking pain. For the most part, that is gone and I'm finally free again to simply sit and breath. I think this type of meditation would be very beneficial to elderly practitioners who can't sit on the floor but want to continue their meditation practice. However, like I said, I'm not a meditation teacher, so what works for my injury might not work for others.
~i bow to the buddha within all beings~